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Thursday, August 4, 2016

Turning 38...ack!

Its my birthday and I will cry if I want to. Yep, I'm turning 38 today and I'm just not happy about it. I don't know if its because I'm creeping up on the big 4-0.  Or if its about the fact that my 40 before 40 list has gone to the wayside. Then again, it could be that lately I've been feeling rather stuck. Whatever the reason, I'm not keen on my birthday this year. I thought posting a birthday wish list would cheer me up, but it didn't.

Normally, I'm cool with getting older. Except, I was brushing my hair the other day and noticed a few grey strands mixed in with my chocolate brown hair - the horror! So, I quickly yanked them out and have been checking my hair ever since. The crazy thing is that I always said I would embrace my grey hairs - what happened?!

Oh, and did I mention that my anxiety has gotten worse. It has. I'm getting worked up over the most inane things - its seriously bothering me.

So, to kick off turning 38, I've decided to turn to a book:
What do you think?  I thought it sounded like something I needed to read ASAP.  A book that will inspire and motivate me - two things I seriously need right now. So, fingers crossed it helps.  And just in case, I have backup:
I watched Strayed on Oprah's Super Soul Sunday talking about this book of quotes and realized I needed it in my life. So, I definitely plan on dipping in and out of this one starting...NOW!

Let me know if you've read either book and what you thought of it. Do you think they'll help get me out of my ruttish state of mind? Here's to hoping they will. And now I'm off to read, You Are A Badass.  Happy reading!!

11 comments:

Terra Hangen said...

Both books sound great to me. I must tell you that I am a senior citizen and I look back to 38 as being YOUNG. So I hope you return to embracing gray hairs and aging and have a fun celebration.

Nadia A said...

Terra, thanks so much!

Lark said...

Happy Birthday! There are some ages that do not inspire love and happiness, but hopefully 38 won't be one of them for you. It's turning 40 that really sucks. Hope the books are as awesome as they sound! And have a great day. :)

Nadia A said...

Lark, thank you! I love your heads up on turning 40 :) So far, I'm enjoying the books. Thanks so much!!

Bellezza said...

Don't be sad, dear Nadia, or anxious. 40 looks good from where I sit, and there are beautiful things to enjoy at every decade. I must remind myself of this, too, and when I feel old-sad-grey I am reminded of my mother saying, "You'll never get any younger than you are today." So, let's embrace the present the best we can. xo

Happy Birthday!!

Aarti said...

Happy birthday, Nadia! I think the part about getting older for me is that I can see how different my life is than what I expected it to be when I was younger ;-) And just generally feel like I have not done quite as much as I thought I would have, or made as much of an impact as I thought I would have. But that doesn't mean that life hasn't been good to me, and I hope that life treats you well this year and all the rest!

Nadia A said...

Dear M, I love what your mother says - that is such a good one I need to remember. And I think you are right about there being beautiful things to enjoy at every decade. Embracing the present sounds like a plan to me :) Thank you! xo

Aarti, thank you! That is so true about life being so different that what you expected - I totally agree. And you are so right, because I feel the same way about not having done enough or having made an impact. I need to remember that life is good and embrace that fact. Thanks so much! Cheers to you :)

guiltless reader said...

Embrace the age ... it's just a number. Happy birthday and happy reading! Both sound like awesome reads!

Nadia A said...

guiltless reader, thanks so much! You are so right - age is just a number ;)

Lisa said...

Oh, some years birthdays are so hard! My hubby was positively cranky when he turned 30. If he'd only known then how great 30 was compared to 50! I was good with 30; I was even good with 40. It always was those odd years that got to me for no apparent reason. Getting older just sucks - grey hairs, wrinkles, bifocals, body parts starting to fall apart; if only we could have the wisdom of our years without the drawbacks! But 38 is a great age - you're still young and there's still time to remember to take care of the skin under your eyes!

Nadia A said...

Lisa, thanks so much! And you are so right about the odd years - they are the ones that always get to me. I agree with you about the wisdom and no drawbacks :) I'm counting on 38 being a great year - trying to focus on the positive.